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The Life and Times …

July 12th, 2009

Hola y’all. So it has been around a month and I am figuring on catching up on my “what have I been doing” trend.

Working backwards from today though not really specifically with any rhyme or order in mind … It was UFC 100 last night, some fucking KICK ASS fights which I must say was an absolute pleasure to watch. I went to Buffalo Wild Wings with several coworkers and some others because they show all the fights for free. I drank belligerently, shocking I know, and altogether had too much whiskey and beer. I managed to beat the resident best-beer-chugger with my power-chug of a 23oz beverage. Absolutely obliterated him. I woke up today finding myself as part of a sandwich and feeling pretty damn good about life. I got to work a little late which was fine and just kind of puttered through the day. All points considered I actually, literally, danced a little jig today. A couple times.

Been kinda seeing someone the last few weeks. Shannon is a pretty damn cool gal but she will be moving and traveling here soon (like, in a month). We knew this going in so no trouble but she is good people and enjoyable to spend time with.

Speaking of time … I have had none (last night excepted). We had our first auction since we moved to the monthly schedule this Thursday. I hauled furniture a week ago Tuesday & Wednesday, my days off from the track. And this week sucked balls. I left the house at 8:30am Monday to haul furniture, got to work at 3:30pm and proceeded to work until 1:30am. Tuesday and Wednesday were much the same sans the working at the track but we had to get set up for the auction Thursday and haul more and do the ad and all that stuff. Got home Tuesday at like 10:30 and then completed the ad, Wednesday was an early day at 8:45pm. Then of course Thursday, auction day, I worked at 9am until 5pm then the auction from then until about 11pm. Nothing like four consecutive 14+ hour days. Fuck me.

Over all the auction was pretty good. It did what we were hoping it would financially, and by that I mean that we made as much off one good/solid auction as we would have in four weekly blah auctions. So in that sense, less work and same $$ == WOOT! Yet, still tired. I need me some sitting at home with no one here alone time.

Let me see … I need to find a new home for my kitties. Bill and Scott are moving into a smaller place and do not want to have four kitties. Suck. Cannot have them here because of Curt. Double suck. Anyone have an idea?

I have to pay some bills. I can afford it just don’t bloody well feel like the act of doing so. Nothing really new in way of music, games, or TV… Entourage starts tonight I think. Leverage is back Wednesday. I am uber-pumped for the 6th Harry Potter movie opening at midnight on Tuesday. I am going to try to watch the previous 5 before then but who knows… hehe. That is a lot of film. I got #1 out of the way the other night, well, a week ago anyway.

Alright, my brain is mush. I am out.

Self-Update

June 9th, 2009

Hi,
So I am a bit bored and thought it may be fun to type a little … or something.

Moreso I thought I would fill everyone in on my current goings-on…
I am in Clearwater, FL still working at the Silks Poker Room at the Tampa Bay Downs thoroughbred track as a shift manager and am theoretically supposed to be promoted to something akin to assistant director or something.

I also have my business. We have dropped down to our summer schedule and are only doing one auction a month (since the summer is so slow down here in this biz) and hopefully that will cover our monthly need as far as the business goes. I wrote a very large check yesterday paying off the guy we originally purchased the business from and thus eliminating appx 1/3 of our business debt (woot!) and saving us a $675/mo payment (double-woot!). Though it is still a little bittersweet — 1/3rd of debt gone is awesome but it still puckers a bit writing a check for that much.

More on the financial side of life (oh joy) we have my Vegas house. I got a letter a few weeks ago that they were going to try to auction it on the court house steps if I did not take action. I still find it horribly ironic and frustrating that they won’t just take the thing back. I mean seriously, Bert, what kind of sense does it make to threaten to foreclose when the buyer says “I don’t want it any more, here are the keys, take it” as I have? Or, why not work with said buyer as promised when the buyer gets a renter in the property and says “here is every penny he is paying me and a little more but all I can do, what can we work with here?” as I have. Good thing I mentally checked out of this whole ordeal months ago or I am pretty sure I would have assassinated someone by now. As it stands my house is listed for a short-sale so we will see how that goes.

And today is my first true/full day off in what seems like eternity though in truth it is not since my mom was in town visiting with my uncle Phillip over my birthday. Prior to that, however, I have not had a day off since the track was closed on Easter. Yuck. I mean sure, I get two days off a week from the poker room but I still have my auction every-week.

As far as socially goes I have managed to eke together a few friends here. I go out a couple nights a week, sometimes to the bar or something but I have founds some movie-goers too which is nice. Plus any time out on the islands/beach/pools is nice and relaxing. Not much in way of a love life but it is no longer completely dormant. I must say my record of going out exclusively with stunning beauties is in tact =).

I must say though, despite the new friends I have made no one here yet compares to any of you who are reading this, my best, oldest and true friends. I am posting this only on myfamily and lordtanle.com which is a fairly small group of people. Thanks to you for your love, care, and support all these years. I miss you!

I am going to try to kick my ass back into gear losing some more weight, I still have not quite gotten to my goal and want to get there so back on a more limited diet with some exercise this month. Gotta get ready. I have been motivated increasingly strongly to better myself and/or contribute more to society or something.

I am contemplating a few ideas and/or life changes but nothing really solidly. We’ll see what the future holds in that vein. Otherwise we shall see if we cannot get this business paid off and back out of debt. I guess that is my life in a nutshell.

Moving

March 31st, 2009

Moving sucks.

That is all.

Okay, anyway. I just moved off the beach to a condo on a golf course. I felt a little wistful leaving the beach, like I was moving away or something, but I am still in town and just less than 10 minutes from the beach.

Had to move, our lease was up which made it doable but now I am only 15-18 minutes from my job at the poker room and only 7-8 minutes from our auction gallery, so much better as the commuting goes. 2 bed, 2 bath place but it is pretty huge. The best part is the “Florida room” which is a screen enclosed patio with sliders into the living room and my bedroom. Even better - we are saving $250/mo in rent (and, if we wanted to, could get a golf club membership for both of us for $320/mo … hmmm).

Call for address if you like.

Blah

March 25th, 2009

I guess I am feeling a bit fickle. Sigh. I had a few things to say a couple minutes ago but now it is gone I guess. Weird.

A few notes -
*I miss a lot of you
*I am exceptionally SICK of hearing about money, all the time, be it bailouts, being in debt, people at work, everything…
*Dave is here tomorrow, woot!
*Against the Wind is an awesome song.
*I am quite annoyed with how crappy Family Guy has been since the mid-season break, just seems like a lot of time wasting crap and obsession with homoeroticism and pot. What’s wrong with Stewie being EVIL again?
*Watching Dollhouse, Sarah Connor, Family Guy (still), Simpsons (still), Castle, Lie to Me, Heroes … Lost soon but I haven’t started on it yet.
*Signed a lease, moving in a couple days. *big shrug* Closer to work, further from the beach.
*I think I should get a job in a slaughter-house or something — All I seem to revel in lately is the glee of death & carnage.
*I found horrible irony in the Montana plane crash into the cemetery *snicker*
*Yes, I know I am a horrible, heartless schmuck.
*Awesome conversation tonight, thank you my very good friend.
*Doing taxes tomorrow with H&R Block, yay, corporate taxes …
*Tomorrow marks me going into my 3rd straight week of working.
*I love baseball season. I was at the Red Sox / Yankees game tonight.
*Some of my new staff rocks!
*I am being recruited, we’ll see how that comes out.
*Goodbye beach, I’ll come back soon - just after I move I guess.

Amongst everything (and a few things specifically) …
Someone give me courage. Someone give me strength. Someone make me bold.

Cryptically, I suppose …

February 23rd, 2009

*S*

I don’t WANT to live in a socialist country

February 4th, 2009

So today Obama imposed a salary limit of $500,000 for senior executive pay for financial institutions receiving bailout money. This does not sit well with me. His reasoning is that the American public “gets upset” hearing about these big bonuses and whatnot for executives amid a struggling economy. Fine, I can understand that but that should NOT be the government’s responsibility to delegate. That is a violation of the fundamental principles of Capitalism, damn it! If the citizens of our fine country are that outraged by these huge bonuses there is an easy solution … take your money out of their hands and take it to a bank that is more properly managed in your eyes.

This all comes back to what seems to be an ever-growing problem in the United States - no one wants to take any responsibility for their actions. “Oooh, these executives are getting too much money - government, go make them stop, I don’t like it but I don’t want to do anything about it myself.”

Is anyone looking at the deeper impact that these kind of steps will take. My point of view? Pay caps lead to qualified CEOs and executives resigning for greener pastures outside the finance sector (where they can be paid) which leads to lesser experienced and less knowledgeable executives stepping up to fill the shoes. Now of course the immediate response to that is “but clearly these overpaid executives DO NOT know what they are doing and are not qualified - look how badly these banks are doing?” If that was your initial response, come on … so in recent years past when these very same executives presided over a booming economy and financial sector they pretty clearly knew what was going on, did that change? No, it is a global slip ‘n’ slide. The whole WORLD economy has slipped through various problems.

One might point to the housing crisis and over financing underqualified people. Sure, I accept that the banks should not have financed these people though they did so because other banks were doing so and to not do so would have led to a worse bottom line and gain for their competitors. Some banks did not over-extend their credit, they played conservatively, they are doing just fine - well, better - than the banks that over extended. In a sense this is the tortoise vs. the hare. Conservative banks are plodding along, they don’t get the boon from the economic expansion but on the other side of the coin they are not in dire straights with the economic bellyflop. Other banks raced forward, stocks shot up, investors profited, CEOs and executives get the payoff - the Capitalistic way, but now they are suffering through the collapse.

The huge problem here is: the government is not ALLOWING any big businesses to fail. We bail out the airlines. We bail out big insurance. We bail out big banks. We bail out big automotive. So where does that leave us? Capitalism only succeeds when businesses are allowed to fail because then and only then can the strong hares continue in their way. If there is no penalty for failure what in the incentive to “play it safe?”

We MUST allow businesses to fail.

I am not saying it is right for everyone’s pensions to disappear, nor is it right for these big fund managers to steal and embezzle or anything like that. It strikes me that a far better solution, rather than spending billions and trillions of dollars to bail out these big businesses that have failed, that the money could equally have been spent to directly help out those who lost their pensions/etc. Let these big businesses fail, move the hurt over toward fund and managements in other, more stable banks, and work some re-compensation there.

Small businesses, the keystones of the economy, fail all the time. Employees are out of work frequently and they go get another job. The same would happen if a big business failed. A successful, conservative company would come in, buy up the assets, keep production flowing, and save jobs. As a side question - where are all the bailouts for small business? My small business is in severe debt but we are growing and improving every day in a crappy economy, sure it is a struggle but it is coming along. I would wager that if the government stepped forward to save 50,000 small businesses at the same expense as one of these mismanaged or ill-surviving giants that the economy would flourish much more quickly than saving one business.

And back to the ever-growing problem in the United States … personal responsibility.
You are looking to build a retirement, sure you contribute to your 401k and if you are at the same company for 25 years you probably are limited in your corporate diversification options so that I can somewhat understand if you get really caught in just one big bank failure. How many financial advisories have you ever read saying, basically, don’t put all your eggs in one basket? Seems like an old, fundamental axiom. If you have other funds, personal savings, stock & bonds, and everything else that you personally have put aside over the years you should know better than to have everything placed in the same investments, at the same bank. No one wants to take responsibility that they should have diversified. They should have been looking at their money.

How about the housing and mortgage market? Yes, you should never have been given that loan but somehow you took the initiative and pushed to get your loan approved where it never should have been. I was in the same situation. When I closed on my house I was making $41,600 or $800 pre-tax a week, plus some tips, on paper. I should have been able to qualify for a house with a payment in the neighborhood of the 45% debt-to-income ratio level of about $1400/mo at most. I had external, undocumented income but my bank wouldn’t accept that. I had to work and work hard to push them to finance me for a loan for $335,000 rather than the $200,000 max I should have been allowed. The point to my message is that I HAD to convince them, take worse terms, “work the system” or whatever you want to call it to be allowed to sign my name for these funds.

So, where in this is the personal responsibility? Sure, the banks should not have financed me, but they did and I took on the personal commitment to incur that debt and repay that loan. That was my responsibility. If I violate that my signature and my WORD has become worthless and that is MY failing, not the banks. Blaming the banks for these problems is a cop-out of personal responsibility.

Now sure, people lose their jobs, family or other circumstances force them to move, etc and they are going to have to face foreclosure and bankruptcy as is the usual circumstance, these things happen.

However, if you are in the same circumstances as when you closed your loan and you have only lost housing value on paper you have NO recourse to call foul. You signed for the loan, bad terms or not, under the same circumstances as you currently are in. Just because your on-paper value has fallen does not mean you should get a rebate or free money because “the big mean banks took advantage of me.” No, take responsibility for your actions. Sure you may be in a poor situation where you would rather pay less, or move, or whatever, but unless circumstances dictate this it is your responsibility to maintain the commitment you signed for. No one held a gun to your head and said “you better take this loan, or else.” No, rather you saw some gain in such financing, at the time, for you personally so you took it. Now that the colors are not so bright does not mean you can back out of this situation.

Are the banks criminal? No. They are capitalists. They are playing the game and trying to thrive and beat out their rivals, they compete. Any sports fan can tell you that there is no game without a loser. The Superbowl just played out but who would have watched it if they knew in advance there would be no winner from the competition? Yay, we both win, tie! That is not competition, that is not capitalism, that is not a way to regulate an industry - you must allow for failure. (The same argument applies to innovation, take a chance or you become complacent). Where would our country be if the founding fathers had not stood up against England and the tyrannical King? There was a definite risk of failure for them and look at the nation they developed out of it? Fear and risk are fundamental and necessary.

What is criminal? I think inventing credit on a tremendous scale is criminal. The United States does not have these trillions of bailout dollars, so where are they coming from? We are not on the silver- or gold-standards any longer. There is no physical, actual backing to our dollar or this money we are inventing. It is backed by the “good faith and credit of the United States.” What does that mean? All that really means is we are bigger and have a stronger military so no other nation can come and call in their markers that we have with them. The dollar is based on credit but like my house’s value it is all “value on paper” which is NOT even close to what it is actually worth. My house, for example, in raw goods is worth a couple 10s of thousands, the fact that it is a roof to live under with running water and electricity makes it worth a little more, but I would safely say far less than half of what I bought it for. Back on point, the dollar, through this path of manufactured credit has been devalued.

Of course, granted, every other country’s economy is negatively responding to our slumped economy and soon the status quo will be re-established but by bailing out these big businesses and other entities that should rightfully have failed and been consumed by stronger competitors we are headed down the same path we are currently walking. We are laying the groundwork for our predecessors to struggle and fail to fail in the same way we are currently walking.

To end the novel (read: rant) in summary:
We are a capitalist nation. Let businesses fail. Find better and more constructive ways to save the less fortunate. Most importantly, take responsibility for your actions.

Guh!

January 21st, 2009

Okay, media, we get it. He’s black. Can we get on to him being president and all these immediate sweeping changes he is supposed to be making?

Lost

January 18th, 2009

I started watching Lost season 4 in preparation for season 5 which starts this week. All I really have to say is:
1) I LOVE this show, as in, adore. If it were a beautiful woman I would make sweet, sweet love to it.
2) The first thing on the first disk is a “Lost recap in 8:15″ which is a recap of the first 3 seasons in 8 minutes & 15 seconds which is both hilarious and awesome.

The Problem with the Economy

January 16th, 2009

>>>Let me preface this entire essay with … I may be wrong. This is not intended to be a fact-checked or necessarily accurate writing.<<<

Centuries past economics was based on the concept of worth and trade. I have a pig, you have some grain, let’s make a deal. I can build you a house but can’t feed myself, let’s work something out. This seems too obvious to point out but I fear it is not.

This is no longer the case. What is “money” in this day and age? Money is digitalized, money is meaningless. The whole concept of money today is based on some intangible concept that works so long as everyone has faith that it works. Unfortunately (I suppose) today we as a planet have lost that necessary faith.

The gross concepts make sense - my house is worth what someone is willing to pay me for it, the amount of money (intangible) they are willing to trade for my house (tangible). However, strictly speaking, my house (and associated land) only has so much intrinsic value. It serves as a shelter and theoretically somewhere I could plant a few crops if I really needed to (and no, I am not speaking of MY house in the burning God-forsaken desert that is southern Nevada but rather of a fictional house & land - that said, I could plant crops on my theoretical house without having to worry about getting water there/etc).

I digress … so I pay 250,000 of this made up unit of worth (read: dollar/yen/rupee/whatever) for my house … in our market somehow it is decided that my market value goes up to 300,000 units because someone would pay for that, but now we approach the problem. In a gross material/land sense the property is only worth, say, 50,000 units (or no units if we have no concept of “money”) but it has backed, intrinsic value of being a shelter.

The same holds true for investments, buying options, selling futures, “investing” and even just putting your “money” in a bank. These are all made up. Banks sound like the most simple but they too return 1.5% or whatever of your “investment” with them, sure it is a guaranteed return in a simple sense, but they base that off a theoretical investment they are making and gaining value in.

The fundamental problem is - these gains in value, these investments, are all on paper. They do not mean anything. They are not backed by anything with true intrinsic (read: life-sustaining/supporting) value. A dollar is only worth something because I can exchange it for a certain amount of food, a horse, fuel, clothing, etc. Investments and the stock exchange and all these other bits of our economy are generating theoretical money with no substance behind them.

California is going into debt. The 5th largest “economy” in the world is going to have to delay tax returns and issue IOUs to its citizens. How can this even be a possibility?

No one stopped to ask the question - hey, should we keep a LOT of our collected tax money liquid, backed by something, in case these over-inflated values decline or the economy crashes?

No, no one stopped to ask that question. California, just like all the banks and insurance companies and airlines took all their taxes/earnings/gains and invested it (into paper) or distributed it out to their shareholders or made other similar moves with it. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to realize that in LA a 2 bed 1 bath apartment selling for 3/4 of a million or more is absolutely fucking insane and completely over valued. The same is true in just about every state and city in the US and is happening across the Earth. In the banks somehow enough regular-Joes got scared that they started yanking their funds out and the BANKS didn’t have enough liquid cash to pay people. Just sounds fundamentally flawed.

Capitalism is all about making money but money should be based off something tangible and actually WORTH something. I am not sitting here advocating communism or socialism or any other system as better or potentially more feasible or appealing but rather I am asserting that no matter the system in use the money has to MEAN something. Money has to represent an actual good or service. Money given on spec is no good because humanity (especially Americans) is populated by honorless cowards, people willing to sign away their name and intentions for a loan but truly face no consequence for failing to uphold their contract. People are given “paper” money on the claim that they will repay it, and when they don’t what happens? Everyone else bails them out? Wait … what happens when “everyone else” has made the same commitments, they don’t actually have any money to bail that person out. Uh oh. The only way to cure this problem is to actually GENERATE further goods and services, tangible things which can repay this credit.

And, as a matter of note, I am not suggesting we should be on the gold or silver standard as in the past. Sure, they are metals, they do have uses in electronics, but other than being scarce they have no well-applied value. They are not wheat, corn, or a guy swinging a hammer. Money needs to reflect something which is actually worth anything.

Request for Thoughts … and My Addictions

January 12th, 2009

I am working on a few projects and with that in mind I am looking for info. At this point I am asking: what are your complaints about life, in general, about life in the United States (if any)? I don’t mean simple little “people are stupid” type stuff but rather overall large scale things (ie: “The government sucks because of THIS type of legislation doing blah blah blah”). Call, comment, or email me.

* Also, anyone know a venture capitalist looking to invest a low five-figure sum with potential excellent returns over time?
* Anyone know a venture capitalist looking to invest … significantly more … with greater potential returns over time but with a significantly longer lead-time?

In other news (literally) I have started reading the new news webpage GlobalPost which recently launched. Quite informative. It seems much less biased than other main-stream news stations and webpages.

Temporarily lost motivation to exercise - damn it but I need to keep my ass in gear, I am doing so well at it!

Yes, I seem to have (somehow/somewhere) found motivation to post on here fairly routinely over the last few days/weeks. I have even restricted myself from posting more because I didn’t want to overload everyone and have you check Tuesday and then again Friday and have 8 more posts to catch up on *cough*. Yes, I am vain but you SHOULD be reading this on a daily basis damn it!

Other things I am doing online …
Webcomics I adore -
* XKCD,
* LookingForGroup,
* LeastICouldDo, and of course
* Penny-Arcade.

I am addicted to youTube.

Speaking of addictions … Hulu.com has a HUGE collection of streaming movies & TV shows. I’ve been watching old school The Pretender, Thief, SeaQuest, etc and newer shows like Legends of the Seeker, Family Guy, Heroes, & Lost will be on there. Woot! for TV. Relatively few ads even, pretty nice. Incidentally, if you have never seen the 6-part-miniseries Thief with Andre Braugher, awesome show (from like 2006 or so). I hear they might make a sequel or something, not sure.

And more addictions? Yep, I have definitely come down with the WoW virus again. Level 68 Affliction ‘Lock kicking ass at the moment. God Damn do I do a lot of damage!

Music -
* Float by Flogging Molly,
* Gonna Go Far Kid by Offspring,
* Womanizer by Britney! (and yeah, go fuck yourselves. You know you like her too, and she is damn sexy) (STOP CRITICIZING ME!!!). There are more but I feel mocked now so I quit!

Otherwise, I may start eBaying. Can I verb the term eBay? Did I just verb the word verb? Is that legal? Some grammar Nazi (read: Petey) is going to sue me or something.

Please keep Maral’s family in your prayers & positive thoughts as her mother is going through some medical difficulties. Much love going that way.

Lastly, me, but without the whole what I am addicted to part … briefly …
* House, rented, now just have to negotiate new terms with Countrywide. Cross your fingers.
* Might have to move/change apartments, our lease is up an the owner (not the landlord, she is awesome) is being a bit of a douche.
* Things are rough financially but holding a little better than previously anticipated. Still not good.
* On that note, I have dusted off my black-and-whites and am trying to get a job elsewhere to supplement. If I can make eBaying (there, I did it again) work or get this auction really rolling that would help.
* If anyone knows anyone hiring in the St. Pete/Tampa/Clearwater area give a buzz and stop holding out on me.
* Come visit me, I am bored and lonely (see aforementioned vices & addictions)
* No, I haven’t been drinking. Something is definitely wrong with me.